All bad things must come to an end

Well, I think it is time to say goodbye. I have been feeling for sometime that the hurricane I held inside me for most of my life has just died out. That hurricane was my past. I have since gone through all my junk that crippled who Jesus meant me to be in him. While there will still be storms, I am sure, but none from the past that Satan or myself can hold me with any longer.
I was freed a long time ago by Jesus but recently let go of the ones that I still tried to be shackled too. I feel different about life now. I see differently. I am no longer fractured parts that I have tried to piece together to show everyone that, "look everyone, I am great, my life is great." I let them fall to the floor about 1 1/2 ago.
I just kept leaving them there and then Jesus came and picked them up. Although there were parts of me that were never going to be the same and what some would say always broken, Jesus said that he could make me something different, something better, something beautiful. Who would think that once something was broken it could be more beautiful than it once was?
So that is what Jesus has been doing. It was a process. I am still in process. It was slow at times because I tried to take back the pieces Jesus was using because I did not believe he could really do it.
Although I do not completely understand it, the bible says that for those of us who have given up our lives to Christ, we are a new creation. Although we still sin and often do, we are seen prefect, complete, by God because of Jesus, his blood covers us.
So all this to say, Jesus picked up all my fractured pieces that I tried to fool everyone else with. He made me into what he said he would. Beautiful, complete and perfect. I love life now and try to live in the moment of everyday now. I am learning to enjoy everything.
While I will always do things that are wrong, fall down, get hurt, be sad...these things are not a forever weight anymore. I am free.
So here is my final challenge to all of you. Have you truely worked through your past? You cant be everything God made you to be if you have not. You are lying to yourself and will waste your life pretending. It really is never to late even if you only have a short time to experience the peace of the complete you.
There are many places for help. I emphasize Christian help. Someone who helps you use the tools of the bible. I do suggest Celebrate Recovery as it really goes deep. I have also used counseling. I still have one but now she helps me learn how to do life in the here and now. We are working towards me gaining tools so that someday soon I can use them on my own without her help. I am also really leaning into real friends. I am done with the light friendships that leave you wanting something more.
Most of all, I have dug into Jesus. You cant change without him...true lasting change that is real. I am starting a new blog http://tmasman.com/melisa/

Hope to see you reading me there!
With all the love Jesus gives me,
melisa