Thomas

My husbands love of me still continues to puzzle me. When I continually tried to destroy our marriage, Thomas continued to hold it together. He looked at me like I was the most beautiful creature God had ever created, while I self loathed who I was...damaged.He continued to love without question when I tried to control him and others with my love. He did not flinch when I told him the darkest, scariest, parts of me that no one had ever known... he simply held me speaking love while I cried and then fell asleep. He opens up who he really is to me...the parts that no one gets to see. He encourages me to take risks and be strong when others have babied me and made me feel small. He stood my my side and gave me courage to change and admit who I really was. He would not let me quit the program. Now I stand better for it, I can walk in the truth of who I am. Thomas continues to amaze me as time goes on. We continue to melt into one another, growing old together, trusting one another like never before. All this to say...I must now show more of this kind of love to my husband. He is only human and can only do so much. He needs my understanding, room to heal, grow, and constant love that he once and most of the time lavished on me.
I am so thankful that God chose to use Thomas to show what love really is. I really did not understand until I met Thomas. He gives me a beautiful pictures of Christ's love...